heres a little update.
enjoy.

she wont forget you.. you meant
the world to her and you dont just
forget people like that... trust me.

You were like coming up for fresh air.
It's like I was drowning,
and you saved me. It's all I know

I've given a lot of thought to the nights we used to have. Those days have come and gone, our lives went by so fast. I faintly remember breathing on your bedroom floor, where I laid and told you, but you swore you loved me more.

I sit and laugh with friends
at what we've all been through,
but I still catch my breath when someone mentions you.

It hurts to be around you, when I see you, even from across the room. It brings up a thousand memories. Not just of us but of my entire life before. It's like I'm frozen in this place that I can't seem to bear to be. I care about you so much. As long as I can remember, everything's always come back to you. I mean, even no matter what was happening between us even the thought of you is at least a constant comfort, but I can't go back. It just hurts.

Am I mad at you? That’s your main concern after shattering my world? Mad for what? Breaking my heart? Or for all the lies? Maybe for letting me put all my trust in you only to be forgotten? How about the fact you didn’t have the decency to talk to me about it. About anything. Or the way you think it’s crazy crying over it. Because to you it's no big deal. Am I mad at you? No. More like crushed. And so so disappointed. Because I always thought you were better than this.

If you have to go,
go.
But if you do,
don't come back.

I just broke up with someone I spent my entire life with.
I don't have a heart anymore.
I've lost my life.
-Boy Meets World

heress an update <3

I want somebody to sleep with the rest of my life, & cuddle up during a movie, on a couch. Stay up all night talking about nothing. Get lost in the woods together. Challenge me, challenge him. Talk about dreams, make dreams. Have fights, the kind that only really matter just as long as you're having them. Someone I can wrestle with, you know, play hard sometimes & not worry about breaking a nail or an arm. A guy who will bring me flowers, once in a while, maybe a rock too or a shell of some sort. Something he saw that made him think of me, made him think "this might make my girl smile" as he smiles to himself. A guy who wants me, maybe even needs me, just a little, enough to hold onto me with everything he's got.

I'm doing fine on my own. When we broke up, I didn't run off and find another man to replace you. But I see you have a new girl, even though it's only been a few days. And according to your lies, you're still loving me even though we are apart. So when I see you look at her the way you used to look at me, I just laugh. I'm sure you're telling her all the same lies you told me. I won't be sad when I think about our memories, I'm sure you're off making better ones with her. You two can go on and be something great. I'm not gonna wish it would of been us. I'm doing fine on my own. But when I finally do find another man, I'll be shining like a star. And then we'll see who's left wishing what could of been.

"You never think the last time is the last time.
You never think there won't be more. You think you have forever, but you don't."
-Grey's Anatomy

I love you because I know you're always there. There to catch me when I fall. There to listen when I need you, there when I feel alone. I love you because you understand me. You know how I feel even when I can't say it. You know I'm not as strong as I say and still you never let me know that I'm not fooling you. I love you because you make me believe, believe that I am not worthless. Believe that I can be loved, am loved, and can love others. I love you because you know, you know I feel this way but can't say it and still you wait. Letting me take my time to come to terms with the fact that I love you, would give my life up to be with you. And above all, never hurt you, lie to you, or leave you. Now I hope you understand."

I've changed so much. I wish you knew how much you changed me. I wonder if I changed you, if your life is different because of me. Because mine's different. My God, you taught me so much, and from that I've grown. I guess that's what happens.

I miss you when something really good happens, because you're the one I want to share it with. I miss you when something is troubling me, because you're the only one who understands me so well. I miss you when I laugh and cry, because I know that you're the one who makes my laughter grow and my tears disappear. I miss you all the time, but I miss you the most when I lie awake at night and think of all the wonderful times we spent with each other for those were some of the best memorable times of my life.

You are my life, you're the only thing it would hurt me to lose.
-Twilight

I may not be with him, but he's still my world. He's still the one thing worth holding onto. The true test of love is not matter how long you two go without talking, he will always find a way back into your heart. No matter how hard you try to forget him, you can't. It's the little things that mean the most, but break your heart all the time. It's those times when a song comes on and you immediately you cry; missing him, wanting him, needing him. Just wishing he thinks about you, and he has never forgot the memories you two have, means everything. Just the the small thought of maybe, just maybe there might be an us to give you the strength to hold on that much longer. You never realize how much you love something until you lose it, and you're one of the lucky ones if you get it back.

Here it goes; I know you've moved on, moved on for good. But there are things you don't know, things I don't show, things that I hide inside. I know to you it seems like I didn't care, seems like I was never there, but there was never once a day that you don't cross my mind, a million times. And believe me, if I could go back, I would but things are different now. Time caught up with us and broke us apart, because now you found someone else, but thats what bothers me. What bothers me is that you left me and that I left you, with words unspoken and a story unread. Words that are still trying to escape my heart and reach out to you, words that are still trying to escape my heart and reach out to you, words that don't notice that time has past, words that still have meaning. What bothers me is that you didn't see the tears I cried and you didn't know that I lied when I told you I was happy. What bothers me is that you still cross my heart a million times a day, and even when I'm sleeping, I can still hear your voice telling me how much you love me or how much you miss me, and that's the only time I'm ever happy. It's when I'm reminiscing about you and dreaming about us. But when reality hits me, it just kills me. But the thing that bothers me the most is that all of this could have been preventend if I had just said something or done something, and the only thing that doesn't bother me is that I learned a valuable lesson... you don't really know what you've got until it's gone.

hey guys!
long time no talkk haha.
gonna try and update a bunch
commmeennt!
<3

So now, alone or not, you've got a walk ahead.
Thing to remember is if we're all alone,
then we're all together in that too.
-P.S. I love you


You will be missed. You were always here to get me through times like this.
And I know if you were here, you'd be laughing at me.
You would say you're not as alone as you think.


i dont think i'm capable of being loved


i love you. not maybe, not tomorrow, not someday, right now.
at this very moment. i realized something.
i need you, i trust you, i admire you. i want you.
and you can be wrong a lot of the time, and we can fight,
and get mad at each other, but nothing,
nothing in this world can change the fact that i love you.


He was holding her tight so she couldn't leave.
He didn't realize she had no reason to go.


I wanted to kiss him.
But of course I didn't.
I wondered why I resisted, when in the past I had always followed my impulses with not much thought of the consequences.
Maybe because it didn't feel like a game with him.
They way it had with so many others before.
Maybe because I had more to lose.
Blurring the line between friendship and attraction was a surefire way to lose a friend.


I've always admitted that I'm ruled by my passions.


It was becoming clear to me that i shouldn't become
too attached to anything. Turn your back and you lose it.
Just like that.


I wanted him to have good memories.
So, that maybe he would come back again one day.
Or at least miss me.


Maybe I made a huge mistake by going out with you.
Maybe I was wrong to fall for you,
but whatever I did wrong,
the biggest mistake I made was believing everything you said.
By trusting you,
I ended up giving you a piece of me and letting you see a part of me that not many people do.
I wore my heart on my sleeve just daring you to take advantage of my love
...and you did.


its beginning to get to me


keep thinking of how much I love talking to you,
how good you look when you smile,
how much I love your laugh.
I daydream about you off and on,
replaying pieces of our conversation,
laughing at funny things that you said or did.
I've memorized your face and the way that you look at me.
I catch myself smiling again at what I imagine.

im scared because I don't want anyone else to have your heart.
I don't want anyone else to kiss your lips,
I don't want anyone else to be in your arms.
I don't want anyone but me to be the one you love.
im scared because I don't want anyone to take my place

And he was my kiss-in-the-rain, my dance-with no music-guy.
He was my kiss-on-the-forhead, I-love-you, sweet-dreams-goodnight.
He was the never-want-to-be-without-you kind of thing;
I was living the dream every girl wants to live.

as i watched you put your arm around
her, i felt something inside me hurt physically.
an aching in my heart like it was breaking into
pieces. isn't it ironic though, as much as it tore
my heart up to see you hold her, i couldn't get
myself to stop watching both of you. because all i
wanted to do was imagine that i was in her place,
& i was the one who actually had you.

heeyy guysss.
i'm baacckkkkkk!
i'm gonna be making 3 new sites
one for; icons
another for; graphics
and another for; surveys.
i'll let you know the site names in a bit.
so check out these quotes.
♥A

Let's be wild and young
Worthless and dumb
Let's break all the rules
Let's be rebellious
Let's fall in love



don't ever say you're not good enough
cuz if he can't see how amazing you are
then he's the one who's not good enough


And when you're crying on your bed does make you feel alive?


your slow shaking fingertips show
that you're scared like me so
let's pretend we're alone ..



&& you know it’s not like she’s forgot about him
She’s just dealing with the pain
&& the fact that she’s survived so well without him
You know it’s driving him insane



There's nothing you can confess that could make me love you less.



its scary to tell someone you love them
but it's the greatest feeling once you say it


She's been stuck in this stereotype of a pretty little girl who's always happy and never does anything wrong.


you complain cus you can't find the right girl
I guess friendship makes you go blind
to see what's standing right in front of you





There's only TWO things that stay true in a girl's life:
1. The ONLY guy she can trust is her dad
2. Her TRUE best friend is her mom"


There's always a wild side to an innocent face


&& so i`m the girl that will put her head
on your shoulder - no, not to cry, just to
be a little closer to you *xo


i know you're my friend when you say
you'd take the pain so i wouldn't have
to bear it alone, but i wouldn't let you.
i wouldn't want anyone to feel what
i've felt. you mean that much to me.



don't trust your mind if you
can't back it up with your heart,
but don't trust your heart if you
can't handle it with your mind.


ii DON'T NEED TO BE WANTED.. ii WANT TO BE NEEDED. x3



and as she eyes him in the halls, his bright
blue eyes glance her way. C0iNCiDENCE?
...probably.